3rd Day in Kuching...

Went visiting friends around Kuching from 1.00pm to 10.00pm.
Rented a van, paid RM18 each. Cools. It was worthed it.
It was fun, seeing old faces...unforgettable ones, especially those whom I've missed so much.
I was totally excited to see all of them, some changed, some grew taller, some still short, some slimmed down....some had gotten their braces. >.<
And there was one, who made me feel guilty all over.
Her glance, her voice, her actions...gave her emotions and feelings all away.
I've never felt sooo guilty in my entire life...
As she talked to me, she didn't smile as much as last time...when I was still around.
She sounded different, she wasn't as cheerful as she was before.
And then, tears started forming around her eyes...I couldn't help it...She made me 'emo' inside.
I felt myself to be blamed for leaving her behind...I was angry with myself.
She was a good friend, my best friend since primary, and now still is.
I will never forget that night...her expression when she saw me again.
She was filled with joy, jumping up and down.... I was jumping too. :)
But after that, she stopped. It was like the joy had died away.
She sat beside me, telling me that she had changed and that I was the same as before.
She told me she traded her chance to have a mobile phone, with a chance to have a laptop.
Nice one. I would want a laptop too. (^^,)
After few minutes of talking...I could feel that she missed me a lot.
I knew that I was one of her closest friends. And she was upset that I left her...she didn't tell me that, but I could sense it.
Seeing her talk to the others wasn't the same as how she talks to me.
I knew she didn't mix around with them much, when I left.
She made me feel even worse.
I didn't know what to do at that moment when her face started to turn red...
I tried my best to keep her tears from coming down...Teasing her with her braces.
Yep, it worked all right. She started smiling again.
How I missed her smile...her laughter...I didn't want all of her to go away...I wanted the real Happy-go-lucky girl back...
But now, I'm not sure whether it's too late or not...I just wish she could find someone who would talk, smile, laugh, and joke with her like how I used to.
The others don't seem good enough to brighten her day...
Could it be that she's missing God in her life...?
Well, she told me she has not gone to church for 3 months now... (~.~)
After all the letter-writing...telling her "Make sure you attend church!!!"
I guess she was busy...or...I don't know.
I want to be there for her...to make her happy once more...but I can't.
I'm all the way across the other side...
I just wanna say I'm sorry....sorry I couldn't be there when you needed me the most...
Sorry for being a bad friend...
I'm sorry...I'm soo sorry...
Sorry for not thinking of your feelings when I decided to move.
Sorry...

Missing you terribly,
~Eilene~

~Happy Chinese New Year!!~

Hey guys and girls, I'm back for more updates! Guess where I am right now?? Yes, I'm somewhere on earth. :) Well, want more details?? I'll give you some clues...

1) This city has lots and lots of small paw prints.
2) It's famous for it's mee...what mee?? KOLO mee. Gonna have some later.
3) It's also famous for...LAKSA!!!! (^^,)
4) A place of unforgettable memories, since the day I was born.
5) You learn about this place in your Sejarah text books.

Have any ideas yet??
I'm sure you guys are pretty good at guessing games, especially when it comes to a SEJARAH question. Hehe...

Well, it's my second day here...it's really peaceful and relaxing. Way different than life in Subang.
I wish I could stay longer...just wanna forget my life in subang for a while and just empty my mind.
At times, I wonder why did I ever leave my hometown...the hometown of no regrets...
And ended up at a place which so much painful thoughts and experiences...
At times, I wished everything would just remain the same as it was 2 years ago...
I wished I didn't have to leave my good and close friends behind...it was as if another part of me had disappeared.

But, I know that God's plans for me are worth it. He made me see and hear things I've never seen or heard before, ever...He helped me understand the life of others outside my hometown.
He motivated me, moulded me, and blessed me with so much that I could never repay...

God's Love and Care for me was what kept me going and moving on...no matter how hard life gets...because at the end of it all, God will take care of it...and we should trust Him and live the Life He wants.

Although I feel like moving back to Kuching, my heart and thoughts still tell me that there is more to see, more to hear, more to experience someplace else. I should not let go of this opportunity God has given me.

I just know that God will one day bring me back to Sarawak when the time is right...but right now, I must never look back. My journey has not ended, it has only just begun.

Believe is the word. Believing is what I can do.
*Smile and get back up*

Anyway, time to promote. Here's a poem which I made up :

Oh Kuching, what a great place to be,
So many cat statues all around,
Come, come, there's so much to see,
If you don't, you'll be letting me down.

So please, please do it for me,
If not, you can only read about it in books,
The food here is good, especially KOLO mee,
It tastes as good as it looks.

GOOOOOOOO KUCHING!!!~~ (^^,)
*SMILES*

All the way in Cat city,
~Eilene~

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
I wouldn't date a smoker, ever.

2. How about drinking?He cannot be an alcoholic but at times he can drink.
Alcohol is expensive, and i don't want them acting drunk. I wouldn't date an alcoholic either.

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
Umm...yes, but I definitely can't "have" him now cause I gotta wait for God to make the
decision for me. Liking a person is okay, but getting to a relationship right now...not really.

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Umm, first things first, I won't do anything about it. If that particular person wants to, go
ahead. I don't mind, provided they have the courage to do so. (^^,)

5. What's your favourite sport?
Badminton~ (^^,)

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
Watch some tv. Hehe~ And ofcourse, if I'm done with homework.

7. Do you like roller coasters?
No, never liked them >.<

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
When God allows me to have one.

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
Date a celebrity who is only a few years older than me. Thought of Lee Hom, but too old. :)

10. What are you doing this weekend?
Church and club activities.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
Restaurant food taste horrible, except shark fin soup!! (^^,)

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
My dad, sister, mum, dog?

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
My dad, on the cheek.

14. Do you like anyone right now?
Yes. But don't ask me who. xP

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
They have shorter hair than girls?

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
The beach give me sun burns...I prefer mountains. :D

17. What kind of phone do you have?
You want to rob me is it?

18. Computer or Laptop?
Cacat computer. (^^,)

19. Jeans or Sweats?
I prefer jeans. :)

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
Umm...the year I was born?

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
Sweet 16. 11 more months to go.

22. What should you be doing right now?
Doing internet research. Hehe.

23. What is your favourite TV show?
Korean and taiwanese dramas.

24. What's been your last purchase?
A mirror and a pack of plastic.

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
No.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Does the skating rink count?

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Complete a big pile of homework, feed my fish, visit the bathroom and sleep?

28. What is your favourite subject?
Add maths, although its kinda hard to do...but I like it!~ (^^,)

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
When God came into my life.

30. Tag 10 people:
10 people. :P

Hey people of the world!!~ (^^,) Hello 2nd week of school in Form 4!!! Sorry for the late update guys and girls...been busy.
Busy with what you say? Busy with new Form 4 subjects, new clubs...new roles... :) A whole new busy life.

Well, first things first, my sister and I have been separated from each other...NOOO...oh well, atleast my teachers aren't bad as hers. xD She's in the Gamma, and me, in Omega. Like omega eggs. Get it? ( I know, it's lame. )

Now, about my science class....well, it started off quite nice..except physics. I had a hard time understanding what the subject was all about. All the FORMULAS (O.O)
Hmm, subjects I like : ADD MATHS!!!! (^^,) Modern maths, Biology and English. Too bad there isn't any art class.

Besides that, I also took up EST as an extra subject, although I did not plan to... Mum and dad insisted that I take it up cause they think it will help me when I go college. Don't know whether I made the right choice cause I can't drop it once I join in. I have to sit for it for SPM. Bummer.
Oh well, no matter what happens, I gotta try to love it somehow. To score in your subjects, you gotta love them.

How about co-curriculum activities? Well, I joined a new club, YEP which stands for Young Enterprise Programme. This club basically exposes us to the world of business. What I love about this club is that it involves crafting!!!~ (^^,) We kind of make products and sell to raise funds. It's fun and a good learning experience.

Okay, I got to stop here. Gotta finish up with some school stuff. Will try to update my blog as frequently as possible. Till then, enjoy your week!!!

With love,
~Eilene~